I tried multiple types of antidepressants, multiple anticonvulsants, a stimulant, an antipsycotic ect. All I got were really bad side effects from the anti-d and the antipsycotic med. The rest didnt cause that bad of side effects but just didn't do anything.

But here's the thing, my doctor doesn't believe me. She just thinks because I'm too pessimistic, it is my fault the medication isn't working. I've already debunked that by telling her that's not quite the case and I was really exited about the adderall, wellbutrin and the strattera because I thought adhd was the root cause. But after taking them for more than a month (as percribed) they just didnt do anything. The adderall did relax me a little bit but was still too subtle to notice any real improvement.

She said that she's never come a cross someone so resistant to meds so it has to be my pessimism and also me not taking pills accordingly. I told her I only stopped a med if it gave me severe side effects and thats only happened to 3 of my meds. So thats not a good argument either, I've almost always taken pills as perscribed.

Anyway you can imagine the frustration and annoyance I may feel from encountering such ignorance. But is it really that uncommon for meds to just not work?

Either way I'm going to try ketamine soon and I hope that'll work. I've also been perscribed depakote today, so I'll be taking it for the next 2 weeks(250 3 times a day) which should be more than enough for it to work. I wonder if my doctor would still be saying it's my fault for it not working if it doesn't work?

But anyway sorry for the rant, I just felt like getting this off my chest.