From what you wrote, it sounds like you are having a difficult time. I'm sorry I don't know what I would be able to offer in the way of helpful suggestions.

I would guess there's not much in the way of mental health services you can get in Vietnam. I think you mentioned your sister lives in America and you might have the chance to move to the U.S. in the future. If you did, then perhaps you could begin to get some of the help you did not get growing up.

I'm an older person myself... more your parents' ages. And there were no mental health services for me when I was young either. So I know something of what that is like. Hopefully being here on PsychCentral can be of some comfort and support though. Please keep posting.