it is a difficult day today.


found out early this morning that a member of our family had passed away in hospital

why it's difficult is simple... we don't know how to react or take the news.


like, we want to act "normal", and sad, and all that stuff, but this woman's last words to us were... I hope you die in hell, so we don't exactly have the emotions that we perhaps should be displaying, but also feel bad for not feeling sad.. well we do feel sad and stuff...... a little.... hard to know how we feel