A few weeks/months ago I had this with my pdoc. He seemed less interested in me.. more impatient. Somewhat stiff.

I'm not sure if it was him reacting to me (we're more therapy-with-meds than true doctor's appointments, but maybe he felt the need to 'play doctor' because of my situation?), me/my perception (there was a lot going on. It also didn't help that I wanted him to offer me to stay the night or the weekend on the ward, because I wasn't doing well at all, and he never mentioned it. I know that if I had been a new patient or this was my first bad time, he'd have suggested it, and now he didn't even say "Would you like" or "Remember you can" (I am allowed to stay 1 night on the ward whenever I want to, it's called a PRN Bed Contract. I never do, so he couldn't have felt I was doing it too often). That felt like he wasn't seeing me. Also, it didn't help that when I apologized for my behaviour in session by email (I was very agitated, and he was scaring me by wanting me to do something that is very triggering to me because it has gone wrong in the past. I didn't shout, but I did raise my voice slightly and interrupt him a few times), and his reply was simply 'Okay!' and not 'Perfectly understandable' or 'Don't worry about it' or 'No need to apologize') , or him (getting tired of me or having something personal going on). *shrug* Maybe it was a combination. It probably was, actually.

Anyway, it's cleared up and has mostly gone back to normal now. :-)

I didn't talk to him about it, but I don't I would no matter what happened. (I might mention it, as in "I was rather frustrated last session" but not "I was frustrated because you were playing games on your phone.. you haven't seemed interested in me in a while" (made up example, he hasn't done anything close to that)) But that's because he's not on the books as my therapist, he is my pdoc and thus his primary function is as my doctor/prescriber. So I don't feel I can demand a 'non-medical' or 'therapeutic' interest.

I hope you'll T starts also going 'back to normal'. It sucks when you don't receive what you need and deserve.