I've been diagnosed many things in the past. I am going to a new Psychiatrist on Saturday (lost insurance in 2016. Began self-medicating, furthering my Adderall addiction to Marijuana, Cocaine, and Crystal Meth). But, I am getting clean after breaking down and almost doing something stupid if not for my boyfriend/partner coming home on his lunch break unannounced.

I really don't know what I'll be diagnosed. Honestly, in the years from 2011-2016, all times I was diagnosed "Bi-Polar" I was abusing adderall. Of course there was "manic" and "depressive", but I wonder if it was only substance induced.

When you were diagnosed BPD, did you bring it up to your Psych? Ask for a specific questionaire? Any information or advice would be great.
Because reading the description and characheristics, I do/meet every single one. It wasn't until this time that I am also including therapy (both online, TalkSpace and in Person) which I hadn't ever before. This time I truly want to get better/heal and not continue what I know is one issue.

THanks for info.
Matt