I sympathize with testing him and then wanting to quit if he doesn't pass, but that is so damaging to relationships both real and T ones. Try not to test him. Give him the freedom to react as he needs without you quitting or abandoning the relationship. Try to receive what he DOES give you, and let that grow. Please don't quit. You have practice getting mad and quitting, so what you need more practice at doing is staying , not quitting, without making such big demands on the other person that you set them upon to fail you.