I call myself a walking paradox. I am definitely an introvert, but I'm not shy by any means. In fact, if I disclose that I am indeed an introvert, people are surprised.

While I can go into a crowd and interact, it takes A LOT out of me, and after a couple hours, I'm ready to go home. As an introvert, however, I long for deep, meaningful connections and have never been able to find them.

Here's a typical example of how things go... I spend time with someone (I'm talking about friendship with other females) and we have a great time. I will commit to trying to keep the communication going and things just... fizzle.

For instance, I got up the nerve to go on a girls trip with coworkers and we had a lot of fun. Since getting back it's like nothing ever happened. I told the group I would like to do another trip this summer, sent out the info, no response. I've tried to see if some of them may want to go to happy hour or something and nothing.

It's not like I really enjoy happy hours / meetups either, but I know I won't connect with anyone watching Netflix and playing with the dog. I really don't like going out alone, and it would be nice just to have someone to hang out with from time to time (I call this my Sex and the City crew), but it never happens.

I'm putting forth effort but it doesn't go anywhere, so I think there's something wrong with me. I'm a fun girl! What gives?