Since my mom treats me like a teenager rather than look for a place to move to on my own I'm going to look for a roommate. I'm not ready to be on my own financially, so I figure this is the best way to get on my feet. She'll be angry at me, I have mentioned it to her, because she wants me to stay until the house is sold.

I wanted to drive down to see my now ex boyfriend because he hates my mom's involvement in my life so he ended things last night again. My mom barrage me with insults. Calling me a prostitute, saying she would disown me, along with saying pack all my bags and go which is not what I want to do, I used to drive more miles to work every week but for some reason seeing him is the ultimate sin. I really think she just likes to pick fights with me and she loves that she ended my relationship.

Needless to say I had to back out of going because I didn't win that fight no matter what I said, and he ended things because he's sick of dealing with my me and my mother. I know really it's for the best but I'm getting symptoms because of the stress. I hate that I can't come to my own conclusions in my own time. In my own way. I'm almost 44 years old and being treated like a child.