How often do you see the T? Maybe try to limit yourself to one e-mail only between sessions and no phone calls, since you said he got upset about the phone calls. In between sessions, try what you suggested about writing a thread or journaling to get your feelings out. I know it can seem like every new feeling or thing that happens is important so you have to tell T right away— but it’s reakly not. Get out your feelings by journaling and then bring it to session. Learn to sit with those feelings for a few days without having to call or email T. Or call a friend. Or go for a walk. You’re a strong person; I know you can keep those boundaries if you put your mind to it!