im in my early 20's female. in my life i only had sex with 2 different man, the one i lost my virginity to, and my current boyfriend. in my teens i always felt turned on by touching, foreplay etc, and i was very sexual in a normal healthy way i guess. When i became sexually active things changed drastically. i never enjoyed sex with the man i lost my virginity to, i felt like i did a mistake and i never enjoyed it, it was'nt like i was in the mood for it, i just went along.

a year passed since i broke up with this bloke, and met my current bf which ive been with for 3 yrs now. i never really craved sex with him either, although at the begining of the relatioship sex didnt bothered me, and i did enjoy it. but then, time passed and its like my self esteem went down the drain, i feel inexperienced in sex, unattractive, and just not into it at all. i actually try to avoid sex. my sex drive is healthy in terms of masturbating, but when it comes to have sex with my bf i just get turned off. its frustrating me, because i know this is a problem and its upsetting my relationship.

im finding myself unable to find my bf attractive in bed, nor even me for that matters. when we do have sex i find myself crying silently sometimes, or just wishing it to end soon, because it just doesnt feel right. i dont know whats the matter with me. i have the most loving boyfriend i could have wished for, but i just dont like having sex with him, and any sexual advances he does on me they dont turn me on at all. this been going on for a year or more now.

Please some opinions?