i went to the doctor tonight. i just couldnt take the mood swings anymore. i didnt even have to tell him that i thought i might be bipolar, he figured it out on his own. i almost started to cry (and i never cry in front of anyone) so many different feeling rushed though me. it was such a relief to be understood! but such a dissapointment... i was clinging to the hope that i was okay, that this was going to pass and nothing was wrong with me. my comfy blankey of denial has been ripped from my grasp. I am so sad. i dont want to be bipolar!!