Quote:
My friend has a poorer understanding and though she acts out of caring, it's difficult for me. She keeps pushing meditation books on me and suggesting that once I'm done with this "episode" maybe I won't need medication.
Not to say that meditation isn't good (when the monkey inside my head isn't screaming) but clearly not gonna cut it alone! I think she feels like if I have this condition I'm somehow defective and she want's to prove it's not the case.
|
My brother pushed this with me. I have a history of meditation, but I'm not practicing much these days. Meditation doesn't disrupt my BP. My BP disrupts my meditation. Try meditating when you're grandiose and delusional. Can you say superpowers?
As far as defective. My father and younger brother care so much that I see myself as being just exactly as normal as everyone else. But I don't see it that way. My brain is not normal. Well, they say, who's brain is? To which I say, almost everybody...that's why it's the norm. It's their way of caring, but it makes me feel like my illness must be rather insignificant from their point of view.