I apologise for even commenting . I don't know you or your situation , I read above ,people who have interacted with you for some time and their words are firm but caring and seem wise
The only thing I really wanted to say is I knew a person once who was attracted to controlling people . I watch them being treated terribly . The controller would occasionally throw this person a compliment or a slight kindness . This was seen as a sign of true love , but to me it was only a piece of rotting bait to ensure they stayed on the hook to be mentally abused some more . The person I knew always found excuses for this controller and blamed themselves for the behaviour . This person I knew had a lot to offer the world , but was wasting their life on a cause they could never win , never find contentment from . They lived 90% sadness and 10% fragile happiness . That person deserved so much more but couldn't see it .