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Originally Posted by emptynightmare
I just want a clean break from her. I feel hurt by her because she makes me feel deficient, in all ways. Her family was so judgmental. And cultural issues.
And she did not care for me and was never there for me. I tried my best by trying to ask questions about her engineering program and stuff. I tried to be supportive. I probably failed because I have no idea what support is. So I have no idea why she would have wanted me around. She would often say things like, "I miss you." If she didn't want me for real, why didn't she just drop me? I have no qualms wishing I could drop her now that she is causing me more unhappiness than happiness. I want to get rid of any trace of her from my life. I want a clean break. I don't want any reminders.
But the company is only on hold so I'll have to wait a bit to find out if I can actually cut her out of my life.
If she does want to continue, I'll give her everything and bow out of her life. I just want it to be over.
Also please no more aspersions over whether or not I use people up and throw them out. If we go through that again, I will say I'm a sociopath just to make you all stay away. It was very painful to me. Am I hurting enough, showing enough pain for you to see my humanity?
I don't know if, after waiting for her to decide what to do with the company, unfriending her is classy or not. But I am just very hurt and abandoned by her.
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Have you told her that you are hurt by her? Does she know that you feel abandoned? I don't know if you shared this with her or not.... The thing is if you act out of anger and revenge, she will never know your human/gentle side... she will perceive it as you being nasty and she probably will think that you are a bad person. BUT this is NOT true. You are not a bad person. you are hurt and in emotional pain. It would take a very wise and enlightened person to see the difference. meaning, only a person working on self development and inner peace can see the emotional suffering that is covered with anger and bunch of bs, you know? So, explain to her how you feel. She might understand it but she may not get you. but, staying classy in your heart and actions is important for you.. because each time you act out of anger and revenge, you will be damaging your own subconscious and that damage will bring more anger to you. In time, you will become a stranger to yourself and it will get worse.
Thus, please stay classy in your heart, otherwise you will be putting salt in your wound. Taking revenge or acting out of revenge ruins your soul and heart.