My normal state - over the past two-years - has been a state of manic/psychotic and it has worked well for me.

But news of mass shootings and, particularly, school shootings, depress me. I’m stupid and angry. Over and over and again the cause is always due to the shooter’s ‘mental heath,’ until it’s not because Stephen Paddock had no history of any disorder.

I own guns (and am out of my mind) but I keep them for my safety and would never use one to harm myself or to make an unwarranted attack upon others.

This kind of crap really messes with me, though. I was institutionalised when Columbine occurred and I felt responsible. I am so very sad. I don’t believe that our founders could have conceived of assault rifles when they wrote ‘arms.’

Not trying to be political. I’m depressed and I don’t think well in these states.