Haven’t checked in in a couple of days because I’ve literally been too exhausted, plus I don’t know how to describe how I’m feeling. I’m actually feeling almost stable, which is nice, except for bouts of self harm thoughts and a general feeling of doom that just overcomes me sometimes out of nowhere. Very bizarre. But overall I feel better. Maybe I just had to adjust to being back at work. I’m trying not to think too far ahead and assume things will go bad again. Just hoping they stay ok.