Being on SSD I can only work so much or i lose SSD. I have taxes coming. From working full time last year following my recovery need part time for now for therapies. My therapist knows we love each other that counts for something, for now she thinks I should work on the problems. We're still talking but kind of broken up. He says i can go find someone that we won't see each other for a while. Has depressed sounding. My mom says I don't need a project I have my own life to fix. I know I'm going to have to let him go but I really want to see him once more at least.