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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
I’m scared I have BPD and have done everything in my power to push him away and sabotage my life.
I was blessed with a man who is ‘great on paper’, and I sabotaged it. He’s so great, he continues to vow his love and devotion to me no matter what I say or do.
What if that’s the truth?
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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
There was no seeing a t and being honest because the last one traumatized me by threatening to send police to my house and force me into inpatient because I had taken 2 Benadryl, she made me go to the ER and I ended up getting admitted, stayed for 18 hours. Why? Just to punish me? Making me play Apples to Apples with a guy with a swastika tattooed on his head.
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Despite all your bad experiences--consider trying another. Try to get to know them before opening up. You have said many of the Ts you have gone to have made you cry. I think this is because you have trauma you need to deal with. With trauma--processing it makes you feel worse but then when you think about it again--your feelings eventually get a little less intense. Though sometimes you think you have gotten past it then it can come back unexpectantly but usually not as intensely as when you first discussed it. That you are afraid of trying is one of your symptoms. You can quit anytime.
