Leia, I go in and out of spells where I feel this way. I always wanted to be one of the people that got lots of attention, to put it bluntly. I do find the few people who have reached out to me on pm, or vice versa, heartwarming at times and there are also a couple of threads and people in them, that I'm starting to get to know.

I really do believe that there is some overlap in between autism and bipolar at least in my case, I have 'traits' of what used to be called asperger's. But sometimes I'm socially clueless plus I often don't know what to say. Then i look and see how other's responded and find myself learning a lot and enjoying the process because it is fascinating to start to develop a 'theory of mind' which has been lacking.

Right now I'm feeling more connected to this place. I hope this message goes some way in that direction for you too.