FWIW, Daisy, I agree with blue.
I mostly have one important question: DID you go home and SH? Because, distressing as it all was...if, in the end, you didn't end up going home, falling apart, and SH-ing, then that's something to just be curious about.

If it were me, while I would've found it horrendously distressing, I also would feel a sense of gratefulness that he cared... because I do think he cared. Cares. And he didn't just say it -- he lived it with his actions.

I hope you're feeling better.