My pdoc has been pushing me to get back into therapy after being off for 5 years or so (I was doing well with my bipolar meds), but a year & a half ago I had an OD so she has been pushing me to go back into therapy.

I went back to the therapist who had helped me when I was first dxed & very depressed, but she kinda "fired" me saying I wasn't making any progress--still ruminating about the thing that caused the OD--can't seem to get past it.

So after about 6 mos. tried another therapist who about the 4th session announced that she thought meds were a "crutch" that were detrimental to therapy as they masked my emotions. Well, my pdoc says I need to stay on meds the rest of my life so I "fired" her.--wrote a letter. I couldn't see going to her with such a major issue that we disagreed on (in my network--that's why I picked her in the first place & didn't go to who my pdoc recommended due to finances).

So I "interviewed" the next one in my network over the phone. I had questions written up regarding her methods of treatment (after I gave her a brief summary of my situation), how she feels about meds, how she handles insurance, what her "emergency" calls policy is, etc. So she "passed" & I've seen her about 4 times.

I also don't know what to talk about now that the background stuff has been discussed. I know I have a lot of maladaptive behaviors, but I don't see how this therapy is going to help.

I guess I'm feeling fairly hopeless of getting over the feelings that caused the OD--been fighting to not do it again.--Suzy