Thanks Technigal, I'm in the US. It would be a good idea to call. Trouble is that there are no threats. In fact to the outside world my parents look like saints because they are helping me so much. My whole world right now feels like it is closing in. I'm looking at rehabs, treatment centers, anything to get me out of here!! Just hope I can find a place that I can bring my animals with me. I made a list today of the things I will bring with me. Then looked at storage units so I won't ever have to come back to this house ever again if I need something in the future. If I can use my credit cards a little longer, I know I will max them out, but where ever I get to, maybe I can dig myself out of that hole. Or just go bankrupt. I don't even care just need to get out of here asap! I have less than a month. My appt with my psych doc is in mid-march so I will let him know that that's my last appointment as I need to leave the toxic environment that helped cause all the problems in the first place. It is tremendous stress to keep living with parents and having to put on a happy face and care about them when they abused me and my brothers. I need out. Like 3 years ago! Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh... Writing here helps collect my thoughts and plans and get outside feedback that I'm not crazy and deserve a life of my own free of my abusers. So thank you if you have read this and for your comment! Helps me to not feel so alone because truly, outside of my therapist once a week, I have no one to talk to about this. I have no social network left. I did tell my professor a little in an email, but he will probably just write me back lecturing me about how inappropriate it was or that I said things wrong or that I need to get my ***** together, and believe me, I'm trying!