I'm sorry you feeling so... "empty"? (I don't know if that's a good word for what you're feeling our not. But it's what occurs to me, reading your post.)

Being that you're in India, I don't know what types of mental health services are available to you there. But I hope there is some way you can have the opportunity to talk with someone, in real life, about what you are experiencing. I know something about what it's like to keep these kinds of feelings bottled up inside. It is exhausting. Hopefully being here on PC can be of some comfort & support as well. My best wishes to you...