2 years ago, [edit to remove graphic SH info]
"there's no one for me to call"
is there now?
would you be there?
are you there?
i wish you were my real daddy
and i was really just a child
i wish i could curl up on the sofa with you and watch a movie
i wish i could fall asleep with you in the next room (i used to say that about S...i wish i could say it about you with as much of myself as i was able to say anything about him)
i wish i'd met you first
i wish i'd attached to you first
i wish you could've been there
i wish you could've protected me from him
do you know how many times i wished he could've protected me?
and all that time, i needed to be protected from him
how do i know that's not the truth now too?