Since I take prazosin he has gone away, I know it seems a good new since being him the leader meant living in a psychological horror movie with demons and entities sending me ecstasy about bleeding to death or someone unknown saying "kill them all". Everything was full of distortions and vivid hallucinations.
But I miss him, I would like to talk to him. Moreover, I don't get use to almost always be in this functioning non hypervigilant state, before I only was this at school and college, I don't get use to be always here, it feels uncomfortable.

I consider him a person, and myself too. Why cannot be both together?

Have you ever missed before a dysfunctional dangerous state/identity?