PTSD (and related ovary explosion-not precise medical name)taught me
happy people want to ignore negative things.Or have fun.
I was in ob-gyn,fighting for life,there was lots of happy soon-to-be mothers and "fathers"(were they pregnant?)sitting on chair and I was lying on floor.They were curiously watching me.

I lost trust for human parents I hope other people will not triggered,as my trigger is too common thing in life.
And I lost trust for my then-living mother by telling me I choose my ex.

She kept telling me forget about all of them and move on.I did if I could.It's a reflex.Engraved my nerve and just react.I hope people at least close to someone with PTSD understand it.