I feel myself wanting to run after crying for the first time in therapy.
I Know to bring this up to her, but I always need to have kinda like bullet points when going into session.

Anyways she just sat there kinda awkwardly, or I guess tried to maintain a neutral face I guess? It wasn't cold, and it was just like the most disconnected I've felt from her since our first few sessions. Like could have been have random burst of tears from trying to hold it all in, or could have just been casually going over my workday.
I'm not sure what I expected her to do though...
I don't have experience crying like this, usually it was because of physical incident as a child not because of an overwhelming feeling while discussing something. I've done it while watching a sad movie, but usually get laugh reactions and will laugh too.

Anyways, It makes it easy to leave her now. It's like back to first step in the connection, which wasn't super strong in the first place but still... I thought it meant steps forward if you cry in therapy. But its been a few weeks, and I feel a lot less closer to her.