there will be a lot of back and forth with emotions in therapy. crying is a good step in a way, but yes it can make you feel more distant or whatever.

i also struggle with crying, i cried for the first time after 8 months in.... i was lucky though because he held me and let me cry on his shoulder, which was crazy powerful moment for me.... i haven't been able to cry since though, i do my shutting down habit again

actually i think maybe asking her for ways to help you keep the connection might help you. maybe you can go more often? outside contact? have a book she can loan you or something like that? it does change though, there are days during the week my connection seems less and then its back. also try journaling.