I’m learning that ‘healing’ is a process. I don’t feel healed. I can’t imagine what that would feel like. I believe I may have healing experiences but I doubt I will ever feel completely healed. I don’t believe there will ever be closure. I doubt closure exists...at least for me.

I began therapy with a female psychologist at the same time I was being exploited by the male psychiatrist. Idiot that I was, I trusted her right away but she turned out to be a wonderful therapist. I had to move to my current state five years later. It took me fifteen years to agree to try to find a supportive therapist here. My current therapist is a Psy.D. (To help you keep them straight). She’s pretty good, too, and I’m grateful I found her.

I did worry, for awhile, that the Psych.D. might get too attached to me, be ‘in-love’ with me, whatever. Apparently, we can’t be too careful. But I brought it up with her and we cleared the air. She assured me that she will not be re-enacting the exploitive abuse of the male psychiatrist.

Yes, I filed every complaint I could think of....civil, criminal, licensing board...I also filed a complaint with Medicare and Medi-Cal.