This is my last post about dystonia. I can't keep bringing it up as I'm sure you're all getting sick of hearing about it. I just feel so depressed today. I can't keep living this way. I feel like I die inside a little bit more every day. Waking up is almost impossible... I literally mean it, getting out of bed is so painful, sometimes it's almost impossible to do without help. I don't want this thing to beat me, but I don't know how much fight I have left. I'm done with the whole thing. Now I know why so many people with chronic pain end up killing themselves. I'm not seriously considering this. I'm just saying I don't blame people who just give up on life under such unbearable circumstances. I'm so desperate for relief.