Thanks, Rainbow and Clyde. I am feeling more together now. I had my moment and I spoke to family. I am feeling lucky now and cautious. I have asked my own sons to write down on paper what their wishes would be in case of an accident. I will have it brought to a lawyer and then place it in a safety deposit box at the bank. My will needs updating also. For now, I am feeling peaceful. I still hurt for my cousins though.