I don’t think it’s realistic to expect us to know if she ever loved you. We don’t know you or her and can’t know what it’s inside her head. Based on your description of events she mistreated and used you, so she likely never loved you. At the same time maybe she did. Some people are jusf lousy human beings yet maybe they do feel love for others. Who knows.

Overall it’s a waste of time trying to figure out what’s inside other people’s heads and why they do what they do. Much better to focus on what's inside your own head and why you do what you do. So I’d start thinking why you want to spend another day agonizing over “if” she loved you or not.

There are many enjoyable things in life. Don’t waste your precious time on all this. It’s done and over with. You deserve to enjoy your life.