Ok if you want us to guess based on info you shared, then no, she never truly loved you. The fact she was “hanging out” or “taking” to you or this or that has nothing to do with love. So my answer is no.

Now start looking into making therapy appointment please. Work on improving your self respect and self esteem as well as perhaps address your inability to let go and desire to be with people who mistreat you. Also some extreme emotion (crying all the time etc). As much as we’d like, we can’t really help you as much as professional in a mental health would.

Good luck