i understand how hard it is...but if you can't tell your mom...try and find someone you can trust... this is a lot to carry on your own... i will be really honest with you... i never told my mom... and i don't know if it would have made it better if i had (back then they looked at it really differently)... the only person i have ever been honest with is my t... i don't know what your family situation is like so all i can do is tell you from my heart... that as hard as it would be to hear... i wouldn't want my child to be struggling with this on her own... if she couldn't tell me...then i would want her to find someone safe she could...take gentle care of yourself... and be safe... lyn