*** POSSIBLE TRIGGER***

This is the anniversary of my losing my father.



He had threatened, Nobody would listen.

I had tried desperately to save him.
I was 12 y.o.
I could not save him.

This was the entire theme of my then mid-winter school vacation.

I was extremely devastated then and for most of my life.

If you are thinking of suicide, please seek help.
You will devastate your loved ones.

If someone is threatening suicide, take them seriously, no matter how many times s/he has threatened.

I am less devastated with time. Yet, I was a very broken-hearted little girl and young woman. The devastation was with me for a lifetime.

He has been forgotten by family, in the sense that nobody wants to talk about him, even the good times. It's all very, very sad.

I still love him, miss him and want to remember the good times with him.
(They say I have his sense of humor. I hope so.)

Today is the anniversary. It's all so vivid in my mind... every detail.

Thanks for listening.


WC