Hi Dechan, just saw this now.

Re why cope (or try to)? I think for me the answer is 'hope'. In my worst moments I have hoped it will get better, and it has, although with ups and downs.

You have made massive progress and showed a lot of will power, know that you can get better and see your progress grow further. I am proud of you!

Sometimes when I am struggling something as simple as watching a nature documentary can calm and intrigue me, because when I am depressed I lose interest in the world not just myself. If I can remind myself how amazing this world is it helps - my son told me he looks at the stars to remind himself how small he is, and that helps him put things in perspective.