I DID A VERY STUPID THING ON WED. I BOUGHT LUNCH FOR EVERYONE AND THEN WENT BY A FLEA MARKET AND FOUND A COUCH FOR MY SON'S FAMILY. I FIRST CALLED THEM AND TOLD THEM THE PRICE AND TO MAKE SURE THEY WOULD PAY ME BACK. I EVEN FOUND A COUPLE OF THINGS FOR MYSELF. IT WAS SUCH A HIGH THAT I FELT SO GIDDY AND LIKE I WAS FLOATING ON A CLOUD. THEN DARKNESS CAME AND I STARTED FEELING GUILTY AND AFRAID. I CAN HARDLY PAY MY BILLS AND NOW THE MONEY IS GONE AND I START TO CRY. IT LIKE WHEN I EAT A WHOLE BAG OF COOKIES AND I GET REAL GUILTY. THE SAME FEELING! I AM SO TIRED OF NOT BE ABLE TO SHOP FOR MYSELF OR OTHERS. I HAVEN'T BEEN SHOPPING FOREVER. I DIDN'T EVEN BUY CHRISTMAS GIFTS WHICH WAS OK W/MY FAMILY BUT NOT FOR ME. I KNOW I WAS ON A MANIC HIGH. I NEED FOR SOMEONE TO BE W/ME WHEN I GET LIKE THIS BUT NO ONE IN MY FAMILY UNDERSTANDS SO I END UP PAYING THE CONSEQUENCES. I CAN'T CHANGE IT NOW. ANY ADVICE GUYS?<font color="blue"> </font> <font color="blue"> </font>