I felt really good marrying my h. I thought we’d have a good life. It was exciting. I felt we were good together. We had potential.

Getting what I deserve? I did feel that I had ‘been around’ a lot more than he would have wanted for his wife. I didn’t tell him about my past intimate relationships until some time after we were married. I worry he was disappointed that I was a slut. He was way less experienced than me. I wonder if I was just too much for him to handle. I was fine with that until I finally wanted to be myself and make love how I need with the passion I need.