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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
As for you laying out the money for everything with her. I’m old-school traditional about the man paying. I have boys and taught them to always offer to pay. So you spent your money on a woman, hoping for love to continue.
If you laid out more than you should have for your own use and now grad school is put off, you didn’t use your best judgment.
So, I say just write off the money. Maybe she intentionally used you for it, maybe not.
Next time be smarter not to over extend yourself.
I know you are hurting. Break ups are hard.
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Thank you very much for your post and thoughts, Tishabuv. I apologize for the following wall of text:
To, maybe clarify, not saying that I should and/or it is necessary, it was more than merely paying for her. What I have yet to post before now is that throughout our entire relationship, even before dating/as a couple and post breakup, I would pay for just about everything. I initially attempted to play the role of a stereotypical man trying to treat the lady; however, what continued seemed to not just be of the aforesaid typical "a man pays for the woman."
She seemingly would hardly ever have money. If she did, she would almost never chip in, although I developed the perspective of paying because of my conscious choice, responsibility (in my choice) and loving her. She would also tell me that she would pay me back for several expenses, but she never did. When I would ask her about the paybacks how ever long after the purchases, she would tell me that at some point before the conversation, I said to her that she did not need to pay be back.
Again, while I was employed and earned income, money was much less of an issue for me because of my perspectives on money and so forth. With that said, she seemed to want to overwhelmingly do activities that cost money... for which I would be the one to pay. I would periodically try to discuss with her budgeting, money in general and so on, but she would often become emotional and state extreme remarks (e.g. "well, we do not have to do anything then!")
(I could and maybe should divulge more about the aforesaid history and topic.)
Regardless of the aforesaid aspects of our history, while we were still in the US, we both made an agreement for a monetary plan with one another for budgeting, how to pay for the expenses in the UK and so on. My financial were personal savings. Conversely, her source of funds were supposed to have been the leftover money from the disbursement of her federal loan that paid for her tuition. She appeared as if she were informed on both the policies and procedures of the disbursement of the loan. She told me roughly the leftover amount, which was enough to assist in our budget to live in the UK. Moreover, she told me that the disbursement should be immediate upon arrival. Consequently, she would have the money as soon as we landed, accessed it and so forth. She allegedly had no money at all when we left for the UK.
Additionally, the money that she allegedly had, she gave to her parents to pay for the cost to repair one of their cars. Apparently, the cost of the repairs was roughly the same cost for purchasing an airline ticket (and luggage and so on) and the UK VISA. She literally called me the day before or so to notify me about the money that she allegedly needed to give to her parents to pay for the repairs to the car. As a result, she would not be able to come to London with me. I, was most ambivalent and suspicious, but I chose to pay for both her VISA and airfare. She seemingly thanked me profusely and remarked how "I really did love her" as evidenced in my action of paying for her VISA and airfare when she allegedly gave her money to her parents.
After arriving in the UK, she found out that she needed to open a bank account in order for the leftover money from the disbursement of the loan to be transferred to her (in her account.) She told me what needed to be done. So, we did so. After a few days or a week, she opened her bank account; however, no leftover money was transferred. I asked her questions about the policies and processes of the disbursement, but she would constantly say "just wait a few more days." "A few days" turned into several weeks. All the while, I continued to ask to find out about her funds, but she would reply with emotion and antagonism. She seemed to be unconcerned, not taking the initiative and not exhibiting urgency in obtaining her source of funds to pay. My personal savings were rapidly decreasing. Additionally, our agreement and plan was not being adhered to at all. She told me that her school told her the school could do nothing since the responsible party was the US Department of Education.
Finally, I, was the one, who decided to call the US Department of Education to find out about the general policies and procedures of the disbursement of a federal loan for tuition. I found out some info such as the disbursement of the loan to transfer the leftover money might require 30-45 days after the loan was disbursed. Also, the employee verified that the party in charge of the speed of processing was the school. So, I then tried to discuss what I learned about the disbursement, its policies and procedures with her, yet she appeared surprised that I even called. Moreover, she then tried to act as if she were ignorant on the topic, how her school misinformed her and so on. At this point in history, I was just about broke.
Multiple times, I asked her about lists of people to ask for money in order for us both to stay, but she said that there was no one that she could/would ask. What she did offer was for me to cosign a loan for a large amount of money with her, which I declined. After seemingly exhausting financial options and so on, we began to plan for both of our returns to the US; however, evidently, only I returned.
When she dumped me, she denied that money was a motive, reason or anything related to her decision and action to breakup with me. For her and according to her, she brokeup with me for two causes, both of which were rooted in trust. She could no longer trust me because I "abandoned" her (one cause) and how I "crumbled" and revealed myself to be in London (other cause.) To elaborate, I "abandoned" her in leaving her in the UK and going back to the US without her. I also revealed myself in London as someone who "collapsed" in a new environment, in the circumstances that we were in and so on.
Also, I was an awful as a person and boyfriend during my stint in the UK. She also claimed that I lied about having no money, that I deceived her with my funds and was holding out on her; however, she changed her perspective to other perspectives over time. For example, she later insisted that we both could have somehow stayed and found the financial means to do so. She said that she could never forgive me for abandoning her, how traumatized she was and more. She told me that she would not talk for a week or a month (I now forget the duration.)
I decided to go back to London for her the next week, reconfess my love her and reconcile... that is another story, but what is most relevant is that even though I continued to tell her that I had no money and was in debt, she continued to want me to pay (while I was in London and back in the states) for expenses for her such as buying materials (e.g. clothing) for her, still renting an apartment, taking her to a different country, paying for dinner, gym memberships, and so on until we stopped talking. All the while, she would tell me that she was single, that we weren't together, and that she could do whatever she wanted (e.g. not talk to me if she chose to not talk) and more.