Yes, I either started waiting to see if he would initiate, or I found an unhealthy way of getting myself to.

I felt the anger lift yesterday, just like I always do. We made truce. No sex still. There should be no reward or punishment tied to this. Just made peace.

Now this last bought of anger/emotional fit lasted two weeks.

This really doesn’t fit into any one psychological disorder or MI.

We watched videos people posted on youtube titled “BPD meltdown” and we chuckled that what they showed was nothing. I could surely post a doozy of a meltdown.

Just like my first post here, Developed Adult Temper Tantrums, nothing has changed. They are only at him over one specific trigger.

I wished a t could have helped us.

So now I just need to look at my past posts when I am triggered to remind myself that I will calm down, the anger will lift, I do not really hate him. The adrenaline that surged in me over these past several days has me feeling so weak and broken down. It is grand mal panic attack.

And that’s my story. I hope good doctors find out what this is and ways to help.