Thank you for your threads Tisha,seriously.It's so brave of you to share all of this.Honestly,when I read your posts,I could have written them myself.

I have been doing this back and forth dance for so long now that my husband doesn't even pay attention to the "f**k you,I'm leaving" tantrums anymore and just rides them out until they pass.And I end up feeling so humiliated over them.

I honestly don't know what's wrong with me.I honestly don't know how much of our problems are me and how much are him.

You are not alone in this.I am not as brave as you to share more but I am a PM away if you choose.