Do you see a therapist? I think you could benefit greatly to have some extra support.

Have you consulted a pdoc for any diagnosis/treatment?
Do you take any meds for your depression?

If the urge to harm yourself becomes overwhelming, please see the resource section here or --

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Call: 1-800-273-8255
Online: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing?

Take good care of yourself.


WC