Here's another question for you. How do you feel about yourself in relation to feeling that you enjoyed the activity or attention that you received from your brother? Is there any shame somewhere that you need to work through? Do you still feel vulnerable, or have you worked through that already?

I ask because when I was molested, at age 11, I didn't know what it was, but I liked that an adult was paying attention to me, and when he asked me if I liked it, I said yes. I sat by him again the next time. It took probably fifteen years before I remembered what happened, and I felt sick when I recognized that memory and what it was. The thing that made me feel sick was knowing that I had said yes. I still feel vulnerable because I still am not sure that I could say no under pressure, and I felt shameful and embarassed and disgusted with myself because I didn't know when I was 11 that what he was doing wasn't right. Just wondering if some of these feelings might apply to you also. I don't know if they do or not, but maybe that is part of the work that you still need to do as well.