Ok... so i know this will sound odd, but here goes.
So, i have a lot of food allergies - like nearly everything edible - but have severe cravings for somethings, but they make me REALLY sick. So it ends up almost being a binge/purge cycle. It is difficult to talk about because it seems so stupid (to me). One is chocolate. i LOVE chocolate - but am highly allergic to it. I've been on a medically restricted diet since July and this is one Major pitfall for me. The other (in food) is rum. Both of those either coincide with, cause, or effect my mood swings and switching with DID. ...as does cutting. So those are my three vices, as it were.

Really, I think the foods lead to mood changes which leads to cutting. So i can't address the third one. But i can address the other two. Told ya this was odd.

Tomorrow will be one week with NO chocolate. and no cutting. I am feeling stronger this time around and must continue to stay off chocolate. So... I am officially counting days. If this is really what is effecting my mood, then feasibly in a month, my moods might improve and i might have a chance at getting myself out of this rut.
Thanks for reading - and supporting.
Kiya