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I was so promiscuous in my younger years thinking that getting attention from men and giving them sex would make me feel better. Sure it did at the moment I was getting the attention but I went back to feeling the same old worthless, useless human I thought I was. I also used men to "save" me. Classic BPD symptom. I new a sexy body and sex was a powerful weapon and the only asset I had to survive. Learned that at a very young age.
Now I am 50 and because of those ingrained thoughts I feel worthless because I am looking older. My body is not the same and I feel I am washed up and useless.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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