Currently sitting in my car willing myself to go back in. I wrote down the answers to today’s worksheet but I don’t understand how to do them. I want to throw up. My therapist warned me that I would probably have residual anxiety today so this was expected but it doesn’t make it any more pleasant. I’m going to make it through the day, I always do (except for the day before my breakdown in October).

High self harm thoughts that are moderately intrusive today. Starting to feel sensations and see images, but still not uncontrollable yet. It’s just my common reaction to prolonged stress. I don’t have any means here at work anyway.

**** I hate this. I need a solution. Sometimes my therapist says I should just accept it without judgement (DBT concept) but I haven’t been able to do that yet. I don’t want to feel like ****. But she says it won’t kill me. Which is true.