i havent self injured for about an month now i want to self injure i cant get tools to use as my husband threw them out in hope i'll no longer self injure but i have used other things to self injure when i can find them other wise i have nothing to use and i feel like i need it it keeps me alive really he use to self injure him self but he says i need to stop if i want to change my gender i have to be stable he dont get that i need it