I still don't know what things came up - he won't tell me, even though I said I would understand if it was a family emergency or he was in court or stuck in traffic or something like that.

I feel really hurt and abandoned - was doing poorly before this happened, which he knew, but feel a million times worse now. Having a hard time pulling myself together enough to pretend I'm OK and a normal person when out in public, and the person I usually turn to when I feel this way, that encouraged me to turn to him when I feel this way, is the reason I feel this way.