I don't know... Maybe both of us are chasing some image of what we thought we could become... I am still convinced, if I had moved about things differently, we might just be happy right now. He was very direct about how my past made him feel. Still he kept coming back to me. Trying to undestand. Asking questions. Probably looking for some mirakle that would make it al sound less like a nightmare to him.
He says it is a dilemma. That he is suffering and that almost about everything bad in his life at the present moment goes back to me. I don't know...

One day when we were talking about therapy and my past he had enough and told me to get out all of my stuff. He basicly called it off when he left the flat. Only to text me one hour later, asking my forgiveness.
I guess he never broke up with anyone before.
He is mad and deeply disappointed because of a stupid thing I did... and deeply regret. Today he told me that he does not see that I am capable of ever truely comitting to the kind of relationship he is looking for. And that he is only waiting for me to realize this.
I started aksing myself weither he can't admit to himself that he has been with a person for half year, whom he never truely loved.