Thank you very much for your support, empathy and for continuing to read and reply.

Again, I apologize for my dispersing of info throughout different posts of mine on different pages. To directly reply to your question, prior to dumping me, she did not exhibit the level of drastic behavior that she disclosed during the breakup and post breakup. When we were initially in London together, she started to reveal her self to be differently than how she was prior to London.

Whether she was showing different layers of her self, sides to her self a combination of the aforesaid two actions, more, not or some other possibility, she revealed her self to be someone whom I increasingly did not recognize. When she dumped me and the history after she dumped me, she continued to disclose her self to be far differently than how she was prior to dumping me.

After she dumped me and during the period of history during post breakup until we stopped talking, I tried to be with her because I was of the perspective that change was always a possibility. I was of the perspective that the stretches in history during London, her dumping me and post breakup might be temporary and might change if she and I were both chose to want and try for those stretches in history to change. Moreover, I was of the opinion that, maybe, through communication, we would both attempt to change ourselves, how we interacted with one another and so on. Consequently, we would, perhaps, heal and rekindle and recontinue our relationship. Again, she conveyed similar, aforementioned perspectives and feelings from her to me.

Additionally, I was that in love with her that I chose to try and fight for whom I loved and my love. Additionally, I was willing and wanting to confront issues, differences and so on, resolve them together, heal together, forgive, and so on. My love for her was that strong, intimate and intense that I was not simply going to stop loving her instantly and/or stop loving her as if I were "flicking off a switch" or some other crappy analogy.

This was the woman whom I had chosen to love, to be the mother of my kids, and my wife. My love also developed to a level where I was of the perspective that the two of us would overcome historical events together and could continue to be with one another. I was also of the perspective that she shared the same aforesaid feelings and views... She said that she did and allegedly showed me that she did (according to her.)


Thank you very much for replying and reading again. I appreciate your empathy and thoughts.

Once again, I apologize for my thoughts to be spread throughout these pages in different posts of mine. I already explained to some extent your question in earlier posts to other messages from other users. With that said, please permit me to restate, reiterate and emphasize that I do not wish, want and/like to be "humiliated" and "made fun of by women" at all.

What you are describing about her "nasty behavior" is part of an issue for me. To elaborate, I was in and of such a degree of love before she started behaving so nastily. For me, in my love and for my love, I was willing to reconcile, to forgive, to heal together, to act on the other (her,) to not ignore issues, troubles and so forth, to not run from issues, troubles and so on and more. I chose to fight for my love and act on my love, rather than stopping, abandoning or giving up.

Additionally, change is always a possibility; therefore, I was of the perspective of trying to change the present, that she might change, that I might change and so on, which would result in, maybe, us being together again.

I also blamed myself and held myself responsible for her dumping me, leaving London and her, the relationship ending, how we were in London and how our relationship came to an end. I wanted and willed to change and amend my past actions, guilt and blame.

When she was behaving so "nastily" as you phrased it, I was trying to figure out how to move out from and/or change such circumstances with her. I did not like, want, or wish for her to be as she was towards me, yet I loved her and wanted to somehow change that portion of history with her and me when it was the present. Thus, even though I did not want nor like her behavior, I demonstrated to her that I allowed and accepted her behavior as I continued to be in communication and interact with her. I chose to be in communication and interact with her because I was of the perspective that, maybe, through communication, we would change towards reconciliation, then reconcile.


Another previously mentioned example between her and me that is most pertinent here is... her wanting an apartment. When I went back for her to London, she literally texted me the night before my original date of departure and typed, "Either you get an apartment and trust me, or have a nice flight home." She literally typed that. (There is much more to the story. It also does not end there.)

Before, during and after she dumped me, she tried to appear as if it were a request, but it was more of a demand, that I rent an apartment for her. Her behavior seemingly became more hostile. Even though I was broke, back in the US and that she dumped me, she still wanted me to rent an apartment for her because she claimed that she would "regain her 'trust,' for me" in my action of renting an apartment for her, yet she would tell me with how ever frequency that she was "single, would be dating again, dating to get me off her mind, could do whatever she wanted, wouldn't talk to me if chose not to do so" and so on. For her, the aforesaid scenario seemed to be a reasonable, honest, kind and equal request.